Falling Leaves

2008-12-24T12:04:00.003+08:00

I love dorks, especially if it's dorky YunHo-shii! <3

2008-12-22T01:33:00.003+08:00

I really got to stop expecting too much.

Love was never meant to be like this.

Arghhh stop listening to emo songs, especially Kelvin Kwan's songs!

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To WS,

Oh well I hope you know who you are. Haha...I want to thank you for being my whinings-listener even though I can turn very very violent and also when you don't understand what I'm talking about (I know you don't).

Gahhh I hate it when our people think that our friendship is more than what it actually is cause I don't want it to affect our friendship. I really do want to continue to be able to complain to you about *ahem ahem*...haha oh you can always complain to me too.

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I love double Ho!

MinHo_YunHo
<3

oh my Minho!

YunHo, leader-shii

2008-11-05T21:23:00.001+08:00

"I see a generation

Rising up to take their place

With selfless faith

I see a near revival

Stirring as we pray and seek

We're on our knees

We're on our knees"

Are we like them?

How can we when we are judging each other? When we're on our feet, ready to stamp those who have done wrong? Ready to look down on them?

Selfless faith? Where is it? It's definitely not within us.

But we are praying and seeking.

Pray and seek with us if you care about the Youth Ministry.

Every Friday, 8 pm in church.

new love

2008-10-18T02:43:00.003+08:00

Clesias has new loves!

Green apple milk tea from each-a-cup

Korean songs, esp from bands/groups like SHINee (<3!)

To WC,

Just to say that we are not abandoning you in this difficult time! We are beside you and you can always come to us when you need us. To you, we can be the pink safe cuddly strong castle when you need one to cry in. But we are not going to be in front of you and shield you from what is going to happen. I believe that God didn't abandon you and He will never do it ever.

2008-10-07T00:49:00.006+08:00

two things.

one is giving up,

it's not that i don't have feelings for you anymore

how can i?

it's just that we are (too) different

and i can't expect anything from you

except friendship

goodbye love, hello friendship.

i'm trusting God

the other is disappointment,

i can't say that i'm not,

that will be lying, won't it?

the decision was plain wrong

from the start

all of us couldn't see that

but now, too late

goodbye innocence, hello regret

i'm still trusting God :)

With God, I never had the need for masks. Instead... true love shields me.

2008-08-18T21:12:00.003+08:00

In the movie "Da Vinci Code", the person who planned the murder and helped in unraveling the various codes and secret messages did it because he wanted the heir of Jesus Christ to reveal him or herself. He rationalized that when the heir of Jesus is revealed, people of colour and of minority and women will no longer be oppressed in this cruel world

We Christians scoff at the idea of Jesus having a child and are insulted when anybody dare to suggest that what we believe is a lie and a facade. However, aren't we all heirs of God and co-heir with Jesus? I think what God wants is that we as heirs/sons/daughters are revealed as people who bask in His love and who is willing to share that love and in that way, people of colour and of minority and women will no longer be oppressed but set free. But are we willing to be revealed? Or are we living in the shadows (when we ourselves carry a little light that can lead them to the biggest light source) and pretend that our soul is as dark as the non-Christians?

SALT THAT SHINES?

Somehow that doesn't sound so impossible after all.

2008-07-23T22:20:00.005+08:00

Moonlight Resonance

I suddenly miss Ray (Lam not Mok!)

I'm so glad that I can see him again!

*happy*

2008-07-14T15:29:00.002+08:00

it's the season of detachment

Seriously, what's the use of emotions when all we get are negative ones which destroys ourselves and others? Even chocolates can't help.

Thanks to someone, I finally know the truth. How long could you have kept it hidden? Stop being such a fool. Did I just notice the crocodile's tears welling up in your eyes?

TRIGGER!

Sarah Mok, where are you?!

Consolation: I look darn slim in the photos! Haha...

2008-06-24T22:02:00.003+08:00

A PICTURE PAINTS A THOUSAND WORDS

Evidently, the mission trip was more than words so try to guess the experience by looking at the pictures, especially the last one!

2008-06-05T20:55:00.003+08:00

THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: PRINCE CASPIAN

It's such a great movie. I'm not saying this because the effects were good or the storyline was good but because it taught me a lot.

The scene that impacted me a lot was when Peter insisted in opening the gates of King Mirez's castle even though it was too late. Susan's question, "What are you doing this for?" really stumped me. To me, I see myself as Peter, busily going through the plan and making sure that everything goes well but what am I doing this for? What am I serving God for? My own personal motives or His own? Peter had to go though a lot before he is able to shout "FOR ASLAN!" as he ran towards his enemies.

Peter is probably one character that we Christians can identify with. Other than Prince Caspian, he can be said to rise the ranks as the main male character. At first, he doesn't believe that Aslan will come back and insists on working without waiting for Aslan. How many times have we done that?

When Prince Caspian looked to other ways for success, he is unconsciously turned to The White Witch who we all know is the bad egg. How many times we look to other places/people instead of God? As Edmund breaks the ice/spell that the WW have over Caspian and Peter, we see Aslan's mural behind which is much more stable than WW's flimpsy ice. It is then that Peter realizes that Aslan is the one who can help and save them.

Aslan is one great lion. He doesn't do much but when he does roars, the trees and rivers come to life. Wow, isn't that similar to how God made the universe with a word and how Jesus calmed the storm with just words? Our God is so great, isn't He? :D

BTW, you will probably expect me to go gushing over how handsome Caspian and Peter is. Well, I was gushing but not over them but over Edmund! He was such a great guy and who wouldn't love a bad guy turned good? :D Even if the next movie doesn't have Peter and Susan (but I'm so bummed! She's my favourite character and that kiss with Caspian *gasp*), there is always still Narnia, Aslan and EDMUND!

2008-06-03T21:36:00.003+08:00

I'M DOING THIS SURVEY BECAUSE CARMEN AKA GIGI-LOVER FORCED ME TO!

1. What you want the most now?

Hmmm....I want a new laptop and more shopping fund!

2. Do you believe in afterlife?

I believe that I'll be dancing with Daddy when I die.

3. Do you hate your friends sometimes?

Why would I?

4. When do you wish to die?

When God wants me to die.

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

Definitely, seen two rainbows next to each other before.

6. What impossible things you would wish to do?

To be able to stop time!

7. Do you believe in eternal love?

Definitely, love is the definition of God and He is eternal

8. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?

Nope

9. What feeling do you love most?

The feeling that I am loved

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

Must be gentle and yet strict with me, able to make me laugh

11. What feeling do you hate most?

The feeling I get when I can't get chocolates or green teas when I need them

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

YUP, YOU GUYS, YOU ARE LOVED BY ME!

13. Is there anything you're looking forward to in the next two weeks?

MISSION TRIP!

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

love

15. Who do you hope to be always there for you?

God because He is bigger than all my problems and feelings

16. Do you find life meaningless?

Why would I?

17. What's your latest injury?

Does sunburn and mosquito bites count?

18. Who did I chat with just now?

Nobody. Gosh, I'm a social loser.

19. What is your dream house?

A beach house

20. Do you believe in trust?

Errr...is that a rhetorical question?

21.Who's your favourite celebrity? (Carmen's question)

What? Can I list a hundred? Okay, kidding Sammul Chan.

22. What's the biggest lesson you have learnt this week? (Mine question)

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chatbox that he/she is tagged has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have a blessing from all.

I'm not specifying who to do, anyone wants to do it can do it :)

2008-05-21T15:12:00.003+08:00

Dear YOU:

I love your smile, it's so sunny and cheery and people can't help but smile when they see you smile. But is there something behind that simple smile? Is there stuggles and sorrows, hurts and wounds behind that smile? If there is, I rather you cry in my presence than hide your feelings.

Jesus loves you with your smiles and tears, your smiling mouth and eyes brimming with tears.

Cliched but true.

2008-05-17T04:42:00.001+08:00

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory 
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

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Prone to wonder, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here's my heart, take and seal it
Seal it for Thy courts above




The Christian life is full of ups and downs. 
One day, I can safely put my trust in God, the another I doubt Him.
But at least I know that I can always turn back to Him and He will always be there to hold me in His arms.

2008-05-06T01:42:00.002+08:00

As a fan of gossip girl, I feel it is my responsibility to inform you the hottest in upper east side.

HOTTEST FRIENEMY:

Serena Van de Woodsen and Blair Woldorf

HOTTEST COUPLE:

Chuck Bass and Blair Woldorf

For more, stay tuned.

You know you love me.
xoxo gossip girl

2008-04-28T00:44:00.002+08:00

please don't tell me

that you are trying.

show me.

i don't really blame you. i mean how can you...
nope, you're not capable of such things.
it was never something that you usually did.
so yup...

that broken window
that bird that flew away

2008-04-21T00:14:00.003+08:00

If you wander off too far, My love will get you home.

If you follow the wrong star, My love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

Get back on your feet and think of Me,

My love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, My love will get you home.

If your troubles break your stride, My love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

Get back on your feet and think of Me,

My love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashamed, My love will get you home.

When there's only you to blame, My love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

Get back on your feet and think of Me,

My love will get you home.

I'm going home,

Back to the place where I belong,

And where your love has always been enough for me

But your love, remains true.

And I don't know why.

You always seem to give me another try.

And when all else fades

My soul will dance with You

Where the love lasts forever

My Love Will Get You Home by Christine Glass

Home by Daughtry

Where The Last Last Forever by Hillsongs United

Love so amazing, so divine

Demands my soul, my life, my all

2008-04-10T22:40:00.004+08:00

If this song is too hard to sing,

the note is too high,

do not try to sing higher.

love is like traveling together,

on the same step,

and yet as strangers.

Our love needs rogue,

to cover my insecurities

and the cracks in our relationship.

So close to reaching

that famous happy end,

almost believing

this one's not pretend.

now you're beside me,

and look how far we come,

so far,

we are so close.

the road is too wide

don't let go of my hand

I'm not going to promise you a starry sky

You've just need to believe.

Faith is the substance of things hope for

the evidence of things unseen.

Dragging Tune by Charmaine Fong & Vincent Wong

Rogue War by Charmaine Fong

So Close by Jon McLaughlin

On The Road by Mandy Chiang & Don Li

Songs For Lovers by Liberty X

2008-04-05T02:03:00.003+08:00

I never seek out shortcuts

A stretch of scenery, a stretch of road

Bypassing a stretch, its views will never be savored.

It’s better to be late than never get there

Why hurry and waste this big, straight road

Once arrived and the running stops,

I’ll be lost as to what to do next

The sense of feet connecting to ground, (well-grounded)

can only be felt at that moment of feet hitting the ground

Regardless of the road, straight or curve,

Follow one’s own pace

Down the path all the way to old age

Step by step

On Boy's monologue in "A Journey Call Life" trailer

translated by tamaya of AsianFantic Forum

2008-04-01T22:08:00.002+08:00

As I was going back home back today, it was already dark.

I have always love the velvet sky with its dim and yet blinking nerves and it's little ball of light called the moon.

I was sitting at the top, with the wind. I felt calm and reassured.

I never knew why.

Perhaps it is so pretty to see the city lights, the signals of the cars against the inky blackness.

Perhaps it is the fact that as the hour passed, the people out there awake decreases.

Perhaps it is the blackness that covers me that I do not need to pretend. No need to lie or to fake. No need to hide the disappointments and the expectations.

I love this natural blanket that God has made for me.

Every night it is not the same.

There was this legend, used to fool sentimental people.

It said that the brightest star guided lovers to their other half.

It is a lie.

Why on earth do the stars care about the affairs of mortal men?

They shine bright so as to prove themselves they are the brightest of them all.

Will you lie next to me?

Even if there was no promise for eternity

I guess not..

hush, soothe

2008-03-26T22:45:00.003+08:00

hush, soothe

sleep well, sleep tight

this dream is here to stay

under the blanket

the glittery blanket

starry, starry night

the moon

a sickle

to cut

reap the harvest

of the day

this lullaby

pulls

push

the empty bed

cloudy pillow

dreams made of cotton candy?

hush, soothe

sleep well, sleep tight

this dream is here to stay

dreaming sweet

cutting all ties with my head

the blood, the sweet blood

around me

angels in bright arrows

the harps lying across

blue grass, pink roots

what colour?

keep me in this whirlwind of colours

that parked car

rocking softly

stars keeping watch

hush, soothe

sleep well, sleep tight

this dream is here to stay

Clesias

green and phone

2008-03-19T22:54:00.004+08:00

Clesias is mourning the loss of her new phone because some idiot stole it away while she has to finish a 800 word essay.

Meanwhile she has green in AF and in Sweet Talk to comfort her. If you want to play a part, please buy a chocolate product for her, best if it were green tea chocolates. She is loving green now and hates the colour brown.

2008-03-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

i want to break all the cliches

break all the happy endings

but you and me?

we are just one big cliche

except we have no

happy ending

together

2008-03-02T19:43:00.002+08:00

the gaps, they are too

wide to cross over

too big

to cover up

too deep to

fill up

and yet, they

are just gaps

2008-02-20T23:24:00.009+08:00

SUPERLATIVES!

Raymund : Most likely to make me laugh whenever he sings at night or whenever there are Raymund moments

Caleb (Leng) : Most likely to irritate me the most and then make me forget about it the next moment

Linus : Most likely to carry my bag because it is too heavy

Bethia : Most likely to convince me to buy a dress (!)

Gracia : Most likely to do the bimbo cheer with me and do it better than me

Eliza : Most likely to bake me the most delicious cupcakes/muffins

Hannah : Most likely to send me the nicest song because she knows it will cheer me up

Grace : Most likely to give me the perfect gifts for birthdays/Christmases/Valentine's and other special days

Leah : Most likely to write me a letter on cutesy paper and then fold in a complicated way so that I won't open it and read (because I don't know how to fold it back later)

MOST IMPORTANTLY

Wini : Most likely to design my wedding invitation, the wedding car and bouquet and perhaps also throw in a backdrop or two

Zoey : Most likely to make me die of laughing too much

Joy : Most likely to help me decide on my wedding gown

Wen Chien : Most likely to tempt me into eating more than I can just by eating ice-cream after a lunch buffet and a Sweet Talk drink

Pris : Most likely to spend hours talking about the crazy things we do and continue to do; most likely to scold my boyfriend and teaches him how to make me happy

the 5 of them : ~~Most likely to~~ Be my bridesmaids during my wedding

I never needed any suger added,

not especially when I have you guys.

Thank you.

2008-02-10T21:48:00.001+08:00

So Simple

by Stacie Orrico

(It could all be so simple, simple)

Don't need high heels

For a good feel

You can keep the fancy clothes

I'll take walkin in the rain

Over things material

I'll trade Melrose and the big names

Give me faces that I know

Just play a melody that everybody knows

Take it down, down, down

And strip it to the core

I don't really need much less is more, more, more

[Chorus:]

True to life, true to me

The way it's got to be

So simple, so simple, so simple

Live to love, love to be

Absolutely free

(so simple, so simple, simple)

Give me wisdom, plain and truthful

Teach me somethin I don't know

Plain as education, inspiration I suppose (yeah yeah)

Give me family, on a Sunday

And I'll be just fine

There's nothing in the world

That's worth more of my time

Take it down, down, down

And strip it to the core

I don't really need much less is more, more, more

[Chorus]

Livin my dream, is my song to the world

(let 'em hear it)

Sharin' my soul and spirit

I'm hopin that you hear it

Got one (one) life (life) to live (live)

It's only what you make it (make it)

Every new day's a chance worth takin

[Chorus]

2008-02-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

MY EYE CANDIES!

1. RAYMOND LAM!!

Good points: acting, singing, doting big brother, filial son, doesn't want to depend on his father

Fave Character: Ken in "The Last Breakthrough" (handsome doctor who does everything and anything to win his love, very stubborn)

:Ben in "Survivor's Law" (sweet and funny lawyer who doesn't dare to confess his love)

:Mou Ching in upcoming "The Four Constables" (cool and yet easily to fall in love, very intellient and wise)

2. Ron Ng

Good points: Good-looking

Fave Character: Probably Lan Huet in upcoming "The Four Constables" (no emotions)

3. Sammul Chan!!

Good points: extremely boyish-looking, acting, singing, very hardworking, doesn't mind that he is misunderstood

Fave Character: Pak Kiu in "The Academy", "On The First Beat" (stubborn police cadet who can be very sweet and is extremely 'cheung qeng')

: Vincent in "Survivor's Law I", "II" (talented and charming lawyer who is too ambitious)

4. Kevin Cheng

Good points: Good looking, best at acting villians

Fave Character: Ka Ming in "Hard Fate" (playful, charming guy who really takes care and dotes on his girlfriend)

Just me and my eye candies <3

2008-02-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

I don't like this feeling.

Is this what it feels to be madly in love?

If it is, I rather not fall in love.

God, please guard my heart.

At least, Clesias is glad that there is steamboat next Monday! STEAMBOAT! STEAMBOAT!

2008-01-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

Joe Zheng : Wei Lun please forgive me, Monday January 28, 2008 Taiwan

Wei Lun angel, how are you in heaven? This will be my first time that I have something to tell you, even though these words may arrive a bit late and slow but I want you to know, this is all my fault.

Still remember the first time when we collaborated together in [Nine Balls], your straightforward and passionate characteristic, even the passive one like me was infected by your lively energy, at that point we could talk about anything.

But after the filming, I’ve started to stray away from you but you still continue to use that cheerful laughter of yours to greet me. And I’ve choose to let this friendship fade away, I believe, at that moment you must thought that you have done something wrong that have effected our friendship.

Actually, all of it was my own selfishness that has started to act up. During that time, I am very confused about developing a close friendship with a friend, because I am afraid of getting hurt, that is why I won’t allow you, the new friend that I have just make, to come into the center of my life, and I don’t even care what you are thinking and stay firm with my believes.

When you left, I have fall into a grievous emotion ever, I asked myself, as your friend, what I have brought for you? It’s all my fault, my childish and selfish behavior, forbidding you to come into my circle of friendship; but you have make me realize that, in order to love every friends who is around me, I must not have doubts about them, afraid of getting hurt while I am with my friends but I should be more open and to really love all my friends who is around me.

A year has pass since you’ve left, our friends and I, also believed that you have already changed into a beautiful angel, having tons of fun in heaven. I still remember the day when the accident happen, we haven’t been chatting for quite a while then, and suddenly we have the tacit of making the last phone call, you still continue to use that sweet and coquettishly ways of yours asking me: [Hm~ Where is my birthday present that you said you are going to give me, when are you going to give it to me?]

Compare to other friends who weren’t able to talk to you via phone that night, I knew, this will be the last present that you will ever give to me, even though it’s cruel but I will always put it deep within my heart, telling myself: [Wei Lun, you are my best friend for life.]

Translated by Kassy @ asianfanatics.net

This is such a fine example of how true friendships can really touch and change people for the better. You may not know her, but Wei Lun was the Taiwanese artiste who passed away one year ago. She is not just well known for her talents but also the way she treats people around her. She was always gentle, friendly and caring to her friends (who included Ariel Lin and Rainie Yang). I believe that God used her greatly to touch the people around her.

Rest in peace, Wei Lun.

2008-01-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

I never meant to come between you and your friend. If you are affected by what I said, I'm sorry. But just know that I've never meant for you to choose between us. I will not be upset or feel betrayed even if you restore your friendship with her.

Can I not invite those who went for steamboat not too long ago when I told them that I wanted to go for steamboat for the outing? I guess not.

2008-01-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

Gosh, I'm so sick. This is not a good time to fall sick, what with all the stupid films to watch and the many many readings to be done with.

But on a happier note, I'm really thankful for the talk with TRIGGER. Thanks for all the encoragement and never blaming me! Let's work to make this CG the most successful and happening CG around! Remember the ABCs of a successful CG! Haha...see you all on Sat!

2008-01-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

I think I'm allergic to you. Could you like stay away from me?

I will appreciate also if nobody tells me their secrets or other people's secret so that I will not get both of us into trouble.

THANK YOU.

2008-01-13T01:46:00.000+08:00

Maybe instead of complaining, whining, grumbling, asking God about, being bitter and resentful about the friendships and the people that we were once so close to, we should just thank God and the people for the encouragement and the memories that were created together.

Prayer really works wonder.

2008-01-05T02:40:00.000+08:00

I may not know how to lead a Bible study but I know God, You will lead, guide and substain me through tomorrow!

2008-01-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

It's the third day of the new year. It doesn't even feel like the new year, it's like any other day.

Looking back on 2007, I have to say that it's been an amazing year. There's been no hoo-ha miracles or anything like that but it's been amazing how God led and guided me. How He did some amazing things like konked up the university system so that I could get into NTU (ask me for the exact details). And how He put me into deep waters so that I could learn to trust and rely on Him. And how when I called out to Him to take away my struggles, He always reminds me of the things important in my life that I had neglected. I didn't put down the "bad" things that happened because I know they are there so that the "good" things are very much appreciated and don't good always triumphs over bad? :)

That's why I'm looking forward to the new year and all that it brings! There is and will be many changes but maybe I love changes but I'm not scared of it. Changes are there to make us grow. And what is there to be afraid when God is with you?

Hello 2008!

2007-12-31T01:36:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the road is surrounded by nice scenery that takes your breath away, and sometimes there is nothing to distract you from this hard path.

Sometimes the time on the road is enjoyable and you wished that you will never be plucked out from the road and yet there are times when you wish that the road will just end here.

Sometimes there are people walking with you, and sometimes you feel lonely walking by yourself.

Sometimes you walk by bodies of water and you are instantly refreshed by the cool air, and sometimes you find yourself in a desert without a drop of water.

Sometimes you feel light and you could actually fly along with the wind, and sometimes you feel that your feet will never have the strength to lift themselves from the ground again.

Sometimes the road is easy with just little stones for you to kick around, and sometimes it is occupied with huge rocks that requires you to maneuver around them.

Sometimes you can just stand up with no scratches when you fall, and sometimes you are so seriously wounded that you can't get up, can't bear the pain or even the strength to call for help.

And yet it is only like times like these that you learn.

Times you wish there was nice scenery around you that teach you to always look to the One inside you, and not to the external.

Times you wish that you could just stop walking that teach you to persevere and not to give up because there are always better things up ahead.

Times you feel lonely that teaches you that there was only one set of footprints on the ground was because He was carrying you.

Times when there was no water that teaches you to stop and pray for rain.

Times when you feel chained to the ground that teaches you to fall on your knees and to surrender everything that chains you to the One who can free you.

Times when there are huge rocks that teaches you to overcome obstacles along the way.

Times you fall and there is no way of getting up that teaches you that it is only when you are down and resting that healing can come and that it is a process that cannot be rushed.

"Your mercy found me on the broken road..."

2007-12-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Telunas was so good this year. Not just because of the food, the extra jetty jumps that I did this year and the many more people who came but because God used this time to really speak to me and teach me.

Re-examining my life was very difficult because I finally saw what I've been really struggling against and being honest with it is no easy task. It was also the last time to equipped myself before I take on the huge task next year leading the CG. And yet God was so good that He knocked some sense into my head.

After turning so many corners, feeling many disappointments and crushed expectations, I finally realized who are my truest friends. It never mattered whether we went out often or we talked often but just coming together and talking about past memories while making new ones is already enough. And we seem to have a new addition, haha. These are the people I'll definitely invite to my wedding, no matter what happen because nothing can break our bond.

No matters what happen, I know that I can rely on you guys to carry me through difficult times.

Now that is what called true friends.

I love you girls!

2007-12-08T16:21:00.000+08:00

YOUTH CAMP IS OVER.

All of camp com's hard work over the past three months is finally over in the split second Andrew say that the campers are dismissed.

Through the five days, indeed God is doing a great work in all of our hearts. Though there are some unhappiness, some who broke down and one meeting which left almost all with tears, it was something that God used to teach each and every one of us different lessons, or maybe different aspects of the same lesson.

I'm in this missing-youth-camp mode. I bet a lot are in this state too. LOL....

When faith honours God, God honours faith.

I'm reassured once again. Thank You.

brain-bo

2007-11-24T22:37:00.000+08:00

I have officially proved that watching too many chick flicks at one go one night will really kill your brain cells the next day.

Today, Eliza (Lizzy-poo) and Hannah (Hannie-hoo) really acted bimbotic and weird. It's all the chick flicks fault.

For me, it was during watching that I felt my brain cells dying. That's when I started to gush over how hot Ron Ng (* wistful sigh*) and Raymond Lam (*double wistful sigh*) is. And then goes on to admit that Ron and Abel really look alike (it's very freaky whenever I see Abel).

But one thing I learned from the chick flicks:

If you don't make mistakes, you will never know how to right it.

It is so true.

So I'm here trying to right a wrong.

I'm sorry for all the hurtful words or actions that I have unknowingly or quite knowingly done to anyone of you. I'm not asking for forgiveness but just acceptance. To accept me as the flawed person that I really am and to love me as who I am.

Will the love of Jesus make you stay?

enchanted

2007-11-23T00:19:00.000+08:00

Today got enchanted by the movie Enchanted with my CG girls. (It's so weird calling my CG girls without Pris, Grace, Wen Chien, Sinyi, Eunice and Mindy.)

It was such a fun movie because of it's silliness and cliche-ness. The actress was such a convincing princess that you couldn't help be entranched by her singing and her dancing around the meadows. It was icing on the cake when there is that really hot (x100000) doctor from Grey's Anatomy, Patrick-something with that Cyclops guy, James-something-that-starts-with-M.

It was gushing session with Adeline about Ron Ng and Samuel Chan, that two HK actors are my latest eye candies. (On The First Beat is such a great show!)

And discussing which girl deserves to win America's Next Top Model with Valerie and Eliza over Pepper Lunch.

Fun afternoon.

Don't forget to be enchanted by Enchanted. (Alright, I know I'm lame.)

Now, it's back to watching RDOV. (Oh my eye candies!!)

I've been dreaming about my true love kiss...

jenny and Jesus

2007-11-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

What an oxymoron.

While I was listening to my (new!!!) MP3 player, the songs "Jenny" (by Click Five) and "Jesus" (by PlanetShakers) play back-to-back each other. And then I started thinking...

"Jenny" is about a guy who is so upset, disturbed, annoyed, irritated, frustrated, all the bad feelings because this girl Jenny (presumbably someone that he is deeply in love with) is so fickle-minded and keeps switching from the cold-shoulder treatment to the lovey-dovey treatment. He thinks that it is driving him crazy, this temporary relationship.

Is life such a mess because of such temporary things? Or also because our own life is just ultimately a temporary thing, "a breath in the wind", "a wave in the ocean"?

And yet, we have Jesus. He is unchanging, the same as before. There is why there is no past tense used when we described Him, "the Bright and Morning Star".

Life becomes much more assured because I know I have someone who is never changing, someone who will not change His love for me, no matter what I do. And I am more assured because I know He is holding my hand.

Which will you choose? The life in "Jenny" or the one in "Jesus"?
For me, I choose the one in "Jesus".

Will you choose the same as me?

2007-11-06T22:47:00.000+08:00

waiting for my Cantonese show to begin

Now I have three hours of Cantonese HK dramas everyday

6pm Revolving Doors of Vengrence

7pm War-of-in-Laws

11pm The Gentle Crackdown

And three or four Cantonese HK movies every week!

I'm in Cantonese paradise!

I'm very happy these few days! Not just because I only have school on Wednesday and Friday but also....oh well, I don't know

But it will be so much better if I have one cup of green tea frappuchino now.

Rain, rain down, rain down, rain down

Wash the makeup from this city

2007-10-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

I first began to notice hands when I found that all men's hands were not as large as my Dad's hands. They were large, strong, and forceful, yet always gentle like the man. His hands encompasses mine even now when he takes it gently yet firmly, as though providing it with a cover of protection against the outside world. But he has always been like that, strong and protective, yet gentle. When those hands hold a baby, the baby stops crying and is quiet as though calmed by their strength and gentleness.

______________________________________________________

Clesias knows that it is time to stop all the bitterness and restore those friendships that were somehow ruined.

But sometimes it is just so hard.

love

2007-10-14T09:39:00.000+08:00

Love so amazing, so divine

Demands my soul, my life, my all.

Have you ever met such a love before?

Clesias is amazed at her Father's love.

to 2 mr. dear

2007-10-01T13:29:00.000+08:00

Mr_______________________,

You are quite fortunate to lead a sheltered life in your own little world that you have lost all touch with humanity. Actually you have very nice features (nice eyes, nice nose etc) but somehow putting it all together on a face, just doesn't do them justice. Or maybe it was ugly-fied by your disdain and scorn of people you think not worthy of you. In other words, you have no redeeming factors even though you can be called "almost handsome". Just like how Voldermort's evilness transformed his handsome features into something atrocious.

Well, if you recognize who you are, then you have the privilege of knowing first hand that you a childish, selfish, insensitive jerk. Did I mention immature also?

Love,
Clesias

_______________________________________________________

Dear _______________,

I guess we have nothing to talk about other than your __________________ on your _____________. Oh well. *shruggs*

Oh, and another thing, I suggest you get a life away from your _____________________.

Love,
Clesias

2007-09-24T22:51:00.000+08:00

This is what you get when you add a bunch of candles, a lighter and a group of immature, totally-fascinated-with-fire kids.

salt and light

2007-09-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

"I'm not saying that I hold all the answers

But I can lead you to the One who does."

taken from the song Come With Me by 33 Miles

Just hearing this song today and it leads me to think that us Christians actually have a lot of power in us. I mean we are actually the one who can lead those who are lost to the King of kings, Lord of lords!

But do all of us "tap" into the power even when we really want to bring them to the Cross? I think all of us will come to a point when we throw our hands up in the air and cried out that it is so hard to bring them to Him.

This song reminds me that we are not the ones who hold the answers. We are just the ones who bring them to the One who does. In every effort to reach out to the lost, there should be a recognition that we can't do it with our strength and a humble surrender of everything we have to Him.

Is your "light" shining brightly or hidden under a bush? Is your "salt" salty or has it lost the saltiness?

2007-08-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

You know how when you read on someone's blog and he/she talks about going out with his/her friends, you sometimes wish that you have a group of friends that you can go out and share with?

Sometimes I can't help but feels that nobody treats me as their real friend. I'm just someone who they are with until their real friends come along. Am I just wired this way or am I being too sensitive?

Oh I forgot, you don't. Firstly because you don't have such moments. Secondly you are not here reading this.

the last breaakthrough

2007-08-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

If there is only one show you are going to watch per week, let it be "The Last Breakthrough". It's such a inspiration to us and so unlike the other shows that TVB produced.

And where else can you get to see such a hot doctor?

sound bites

2007-08-25T15:53:00.000+08:00

Sound is one of the most important component in the society. There's no stopping sounds from entering your ears the same way you close your eyes to stop seeing. It has the ability to permeate every pore of your body, making you tingle with it's very own vibration. Add deep and meaningful lyrics to a melody skillfully created with much effort, you will often get a piece that will stir and move deeply within people's heart.

That's the same with worship. Worship should be a platform for you to meet with God, a time to let go of worldly cares and fetters, a chance to let His healing takes place within you, a reminder of how His blood is still flowing, still healing for you. The struggle, joy, praise and adoration etc that is reflected in the lyrics is your own; you can claim it as your own and lift it up to your eternal Saviour from your heart. There are no words enough to exactly describe the power and impact of worship, but I'm sure it's something that you will understand in your own way.

That's why I'm truly addicted to worship.

2007-08-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

I finally understand the sentence "I stand tall on my knees." tonight.

Who says prayers is a waste of time?

When man works, man works.

But when man prays, God works.

2007-08-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

Stained Glass Masqurade

By: Casting Crowns

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

CHORUS
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

CHORUS 2x

But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain on our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small

________________________________________

Clesias saw her eye candy three times this week! That makes her a happy, plastic girl. (Writing in italics is so fun!)

first week of school

2007-08-14T17:13:00.000+08:00

Everybody been asking me "How's first week of school?".

So here's my answer:

It's been okay. The lectures went a bit fast but the people there are nice. I'm beginning to not understand what the lecturers are talking about though. Getting a bit worried.

So please stop asking me.

On a brighter note, I'm glad that the matter has been resolved just before school started. Thank God that the person has stopped persuading me. Now that I have made myself very clear, I'm beginning to ignore all their little outings. It's a good sign. *beams*

P.S: All TVB-holics like me, watch "Forensic Heroes" if you haven't! It's such a great show!

2007-08-06T00:22:00.000+08:00

I think I need to know what people think of me, so please do this test!

http://kevan.org/johari?name=clesias

Actually, it won't be that accurate because there is no "irritating" or "annoying" there, which I know is best described me.

2007-08-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

I've finally realised that I'm going to be a university student.

Man, I've got to grow up.

I've realised that the reason they left me out is because I've not impacted them yet. So try to impact them or not? I choose not to. It's not because I'm scared of failing and getting hurt again but because I don't want to be like them, not caring about other people's feelings and leaving other people out. I don't want others to go through the same thing as me.

So I'm leaving it here. I've decided to close the door on them and our past. Even if they may never read or notice this, but at least I will feel better. It is just another acceptance that we will never be the same or that we are no longer "close friends".

Thanks for the memories. But it is never enough for me to live on and move on.

2007-07-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

Disarray

By: Lifehouse

I've faced my demons
Wrestling these angels to the ground
And all that I could find
Was a thin line between
All the saints and villains
it was crossed in my own mind

Someday I'm gonna find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright
I wouldn't have it any other way

I’m struggling between the facts and fiction
I’m alone
But I'm alive
Everyone around me is trying to make a statement
Then there's me
I’m just trying to survive

If this was any other day
I'd pretend to know where I stand
I just don’t know (just don’t know)

Someday I will find it
Wish I knew what I was looking for
Inside the disarray (inside the disarray)
I woke up this morning
Don’t know where I’m going
But it’s alright

Hey, how was the bbq? I hope it went great and that the food
was awesome. I hope it was worth our friendship.

Stop deluding yourself. You know and I know that we are no
longer "close friends" or "good friends" to put it in your own
words.

pretentious

2007-07-29T20:03:00.000+08:00

Why can't people who pretend that they are my good friends or trying to show off to people that they are close to me just stay away from my blog, or even my life?

Is our friendship a facade that I'm too tired to put up anymore?

myself

2007-07-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

You Are a Brownie

Decadent and intense, you aren't for the weakhearted.

Those who can deal with your strong flavor find out how sweet you really are.

What Dessert Are You Most Like?

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.

You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.

You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.

Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable.

Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there.

You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Your Nail Polish Color is Pink

How you're unique: You're girly without being high maintenance

Why your style rocks: You're the perfect blend of stylish, preppy, and cute

What this color says about you: "I am secure enough not to follow every trend"

What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

2007-07-12T15:48:00.000+08:00

What others see from your style

You tend to be a gentle and pleasant person. You love nature and at least some of the arts, and derive great satisfaction from being helpful. You are stubborn and are not interested in wealth and power.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are a sensuous person who can also get bored easily. You're probably a little lazy and like to have your own way.

What others see from your ties

You enjoy being alone. You like to life the simple but good life, and you cherish your freedom. You are thoughtful, confident and uninterested in glamour.

What others see from your belts

You are a frank, assertive and sometimes flamboyant person. You are friendly and want to be accepted by everybody. You like to have fun, to be free, and to live a comfortable lifestyle.

What others see from your shoes

You're very young at heart. You regard freedom highly and don't like to be controlled by a set of rules. You don't like conflict, will compromise wherever possible, and are hardworking people. Occasionally you can become vulnerable when having to face problems, especially emotional ones.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably a free spirit at heart with artistic talent. You are absolutely unique and are always coming up with lots of great ideas. Being happy is your most important goal.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

daydreamer

2007-07-11T16:31:00.000+08:00

Daydreamer

By: Lee Ryan

Young man, got a lot of soul
In God We Trust
He broke the mould with this one
It feels like
There's nowhere left to run
In fact his life has just begun with a dream
And sometimes that's enough

Chorus: 
Fly away, drift and glide 
Fly away, drift and glide 
Daydreamer, what are you dreaming of? 
Daydreamer what are you thinking of? 
Daydreamer, wanna dream with ya 
Leave it all behind 
I say, welcome to the dreamtime 


Young girl that I used to know 
Sung a lullaby and stole the show from everyone 
I'll tell ya 
Just when she closed her eyes 
She saw the world and she fantasied 
It was part of her and it was beautiful 


(Chorus) 


A sworn song for my girl 
I love you but I don't know where you are 
So long for now 
I'll see you in my dreamtime 


(Chorus)

_________________________________________________




Thanks for being almost there.


Now I'm going to close the door on us.

invisible post

2007-07-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

Hey guys, you shouldn't even be here. There is nothing here.

I repeat, do not ever come here again. There is a strange virus attacking whoever who comes here. So stay away from here! Delete my link if you have to.

Left out. That's what I've been feeling these past week. Oh gosh, now I'm going to sound like an emo-freak. That's side effects of watching too much Oprah, I'm telling you. (Now great, I've just become a nutter who's talking to her other "her". I mean "you"....or wait, is it "I"? *throughly confused*)

I don't know why I let it affect me. The fact that they've been going out all week, going to each other's house and playing what-not while I've stuck at home with my computer, TV, mp3 player and Harry Potter And The Order Of Phoenix. (Pretty dreadful companionship, huh). I guess it got to do with the fact that we used to be so close. I mean I accept the fact that people change and friendships change, just that it is still a pretty unresolved issue in my heart. I've tried surrendering this to God and keep telling myself that it doesn't really bother me, but I still bite my lips whenever they blogged about the latest place they go and latest things they do. Or when I'm sitting down there and they just treat the rest of us invisible as they talk about their latest secrets, things the rest of us doesn't have a single clue about (I will rather I do not be with them than to go through that kind of torture.)

You know I've envisioned them in my future 21st birthday party or even my future wedding, all having fun. But now I just don't see them there anymore when I try to imagine my wedding. Scary huh. Friends that you have thought you will share weal and woe even when growing old suddenly become strangers overnight, if not over a long period of time.

It's not a cold shrug-off that I've received. It's not even a torrent of harsh words poured out during a argument. Of course, it's not as dramatic as Harry Potter. But it's a disinterest in my life, a distrust in me, a dislike of being with me and a distance that is happening so slowly that none of us will know until it is over. Except I would have like to be one of those who didn't know.

I wonder what is God trying to say. Is He saying "My dear, all these are temporal. Fix your eyes on Me and I will satisfy you."? Saying "This is to prepare you for better friends coming your way."? Or maybe He is saying "You nutter! You are just over-reacting, over-imagining, over-emotional and over everything! Go and be nice to them and do not be bitter about anything!" (Great Clesias, you've just risen another level of madness -hearing voices that contradict each other.)

Now that my whole social life is in a mess, I'm more worried about starting school. What if I can't fit in? What if I'm doomed to spending school life wandering around school alone? What if I failed to be a good example of Christianity and instead is a fat stumbling block? I haven't even begin to address my fear of failing my exams and waste four years and my parents' money.

And yet I know that God will bring me through. He was the one who convinced my mum (years ago) that she doesn't have to worry because I will surely go to university. And He must be the one who convinced the lady that I signed up for English Lit course when I never ticked English Lit. I may not know what He wants me to do with that path but I trust Him enough to know that it's going to be the best for me.

A friendship that only bubbles over without any real substance maybe wasn't meant to start in the first place?

HEY, WHAT ARE YOU STILL DOING HERE?!

brighten my heart

2007-07-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

Brighten My Heart
By: Sixpence None The Richer

My heart is as dark as the soil sodden with winter rains.
My soul is as heavy as the peat freshly dug from the bog.
My thoughts swirl like willow branches caught in autumn winds.
My body as tense as a cat’s as it stalks it’s prey.

Help me open my heart to you,
Help me open my heart to you,
Help me open my heart to you, oh Jesus.
It’s what I long to do.

My heart is as dark as the soil sodden with winter rains.
(Lord, brighten my heart)
My soul is as heavy as the peat freshly dug from the bog.
(Lord, lighten my soul)
My thoughts swirl like willow branches caught in autumn winds.
(Lord, still my thoughts)
My body as tense as a cat’s as it stalks it’s prey. (Lord, relax my body)

Help me open my heart to you,
Help me open my heart to you,
Help me open my heart to you, oh Jesus.
It’s what I long to do.

CRUNCHYROLL-ING

2007-07-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

Great! I have successful not update for so long that nobody comes here anymore! Now I can really pour out my feelings. (how many litres, Clesias? Okay, not funny)

Arghhhh...that horrible Mika song that my brother plays 24/7 is really driving me mad. The love of God is preventing me from taking his phone and throwing it out of the window, ten floors down. (P.S: if you see a white Sony Ericson phone broken into pieces outside Blk 849, then you know what happen. Cause human beings have their boundaries, you know.)

Now, what I'm doing is crunchyroll-ing, watching hilarious "Beautiful Cooking", the oh-so-handsome-Raymond-Lam! "La Femme Desperado" and the lame/cliched-storyline-crappy-acting "Heart Of Fencing". What a great social life I have. *sarcastic*

i wish...

2007-05-28T18:48:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes I wish that the sun wouldn't rise so that I wouldn't have to wake up and face those horrible truths that I'm no longer the same.

But who am I to dictate whether the sun rise or not?"

Yeah, I'm in one of those moods where no amount of chocolate can help. You better stay away from me.

happy birthday!

2007-05-17T19:03:00.000+08:00

Dear Clesias aka Ch'ng Yi aka Chngster,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MY DEAR GIRL!

May God's blessings be unto you for the rest of your life and that you will stay close to Him. May God also bring the right guy (who looks like ______ and is as sweet as ______ ) to you at the right time!

Don't worry, your Creative Zen Stone will be coming to you very soon!

Love, Clesias.

P.S: Congrats for getting into NTU!

chocoholic

2007-05-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

Even seeing pictures of chocolates makes me happy!
I guess I am a real scavanging chocoholic.

This is one of the presents that Bethia, Calebs, Raymund and Kun Quan jointly gave me. Imagine my happiness when I opened the box! I haven't started on it and I don't intend to (unless I'm real stressed out) I just love the pretty swirls on the box!

I'm still waiting patiently for my presents!

creative zen stone

2007-05-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

I am so getting this MP3 player! Unless some nice souls are willing to get it for my birthday! *hint hint wink wink*

world of my own

2007-05-02T12:18:00.000+08:00

I've just realized that among my friends, I'm in a world of my own regarding my favourites. Don't believe me? Take a look at what I like and you will agree that none of these things appeal to you.

: I'm a absolute lover of Cantonese music. (Most of my friends don't even like Chinese music)

: Hong Kong dramas are a must for me. (Taiwanese idol drama? Korean cry-buckets-of-tears-drama?)

: Forum-ing is what I do when I'm on the net. (You must be now asking what is forum-ing)

: Nothing beats a Gothic/thriller/crime busting book for me. (Most of my friends won't even touch a book. Those who do are usually does who enjoys historical romance)

: I'm interested in watching plays and going to the museum. (None of my friends will spend the time and money.)

Does this mean that I'm weird? So...to blend in or not? To forget everytime that I love and try to pretend that I love English music, love Korean dramas, don't like reading and scorn at all artistic appreciation or to be truly myself?

That is the question.

"For You created my inmost

being; You knit me together

in my mother's womb.

I praise You because I am

fearfully and wonderfully

made;Your works are

wonderful, I know that full

well."

[Psalms 139: 13-14]

visualDNA

2007-04-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

dreams of colour

2007-04-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

Dream Of Colours

(Every Monday-Friday, 10pm

Channel U

Starting this Tuesday 24 April)

"At the end of a fashion show, the internationally renowned fashion designer Nick Yau (Tse Kwan Ho) walks onto the stage amidst rapturous applause together with top model Elaine Poon (Melissa Ng), the angel of his heart who inspires him to greatness. All fabulous costumes and the brightly lit catwalk make it an enthralling show to enjoy.

Nick has high expectations on new designers Michelle Ku (Myolie), Phoebe Lui (Rain Lee) and Ella Kwan (Sharon Chan). Michelle's grandfather Ku Chun Kau is Nick's mentor. Because of his relationship with Kau, Nick puts even higher demands on Michelle.

Michelle, Phoebe and Ella are talented and have great potential but there are considerable obstacles to overcome before their rise to fame. To live their dreams, they are determined to endure the hardships and to face the challenges ahead. As time goes by, Nick and Michelle have developed a genuine affection for each other. Elaine is heartbroken. But tears are gone when a suitor Mario Law (Sinn Lap Man), Nick's partner, comes to woo her."

Cast included:

Myolie Wu

Melissa Ng

Sharon Chan

Rain Lee

Tse Kwan Ho
Mo Ka Yiu
Lui San
Liu Kai Chi
Stephanie Wang
Lai Lok Yee
Lau Kong
Kenneth Ma
Law Kwoon Lan

Credits to http://hkadb.net/ for the picture and information.

Another Myolie series! *clap clap*

on every side

2007-04-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

"As with all my books, there is a nugget of truth nestled between the lines between the lines of the story. The truth is that walls have been around since the beginning of time, whether they belonged to Adam and Eve, who allowed a barrier between themselves and God, or the people of Jericho, who believed they could keep God out by building a wall around their city.

...I thought walls were more of an Old Testament issue. Walled-in cities; walled-in, stubborn people; temple wall, that kind of thing. But as the story comes to life, God began to make something very clear.

Walls are a part of our lives to this very day.

Oh, we may not think we've put walls between God and us. I certainly didn't think so. But I discovered that without meaning to, I had allowed scheldues and responsibilities and the busyness of life to put distance between the Lord and me. In a sense, I allowed walls to form. I'm guessing that this is true for you as well. Though your intentions may have been good, somewhere along the way you've allowed space to come between you and the Father."

taken from the novel, On Every Side from Karen Kingsbury

Is there a wall that is keeping you from God, the One who loves you?

"Be strong and courageous,

daughter. You will not fight this

battle alone. I will go before

you...the battles belongs to the

Lord....I know the plans I have for

you...and it is My pleasure to do

more than you can ever ask or

imagine..."

worst sushi experience

2007-04-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

This story has a moral to it...

Once, two guys and girls went for a Suki Sushi buffet.. When they sat down, the guys immediately reached for a bowl of fried salmon skin, and ordered lots of fried stuff like fried soft shell crabs. The girls wanted to order some sushi so they asked the guys what they want. Guess what one of the guys said?

Guy: I don't eat sushi.

Girl: (puzzled) Why?

Guy: Because the rice will make me full.

(Me: Doesn't he realize that he is in a SUSHI resturant? *rolls eyes*)

In the end, all they ate was plates full of fried oily food and the guys didn't eat anymore because they got so sick of the oil. The girls only ate a few plates of sushi and so they wanted to eat somemore. But the guys were restless and insist on going to one of their other friend's home. With no other choice, the girls decided to stop. When the girls got home, they felt that what they eaten wasn't worth the $20 and they were hungry the moment they reached home.

Moral of the story: Don't ever go to a

sushi buffet with this kind of people!

Feel sorry for the girls? Unfortunately, this happened to me this afternoon.

I'm not saying who the guys but I'll give you a hint: One of the guy's name starts with a 'R' and ends with a 'D' and the other's name starts with a 'C' and ends with a 'B'.

*planning to go for another sushi

buffet three weeks later*

random

2007-04-17T14:26:00.000+08:00

I'm in a kinda bad mood today because there was NO EXTREME MAKEOVER: HOME EDITION TODAY! Instead it was replaced by Beauty And The Geek and some Martin Yen cooking show. *glares at Mediacorp*

And somehow I just can't download the blogskin that caught my eye. Yes, you must be wondering "Hmm, What is Ch'ng Yi doing finding a new blogskin? Doesn't she realize that nobody is reading her blog anymore?"

Yesterday night I had a very weird dream. I dream that I was supposed to meet my friends for lunch. While I was waiting for them at the appointed time and venue, one by one called me or msged me saying that something cropped up, they had an emergency and therefore they are unable to meet up with me. Although I was upset, there wasn't anything I could do about it, is there? So I decided to not waste this day since I'm already out and walked around.

As I was walking around, I met the friends who was supposed to meet me and there they were with other friends. I knew what was going on because they had a guilty expression on their face. Just as I was going to throw a chair at them, I woke up. Woah, what a great time to wake up *rolls eyes*

The worst things is not that I wanted to throw a chair at them (that was like the best thing) but it feels so real. I can imagine it happening in real life. And that makes me so paronoid once again. And insecure about the friendships I have now. How do I know that my friends will not treat me like what happened in the dream?

Oh Lord, please take away all my insecurities.

extreme makeover

2007-04-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, this no-job status with nothing to do has really turned me into a TV freak. Now I'm hooked on this show called "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition".

I know you are thinking to yourself, 'How can Ch'ng Yi watch such a stupid show?". But the "Home Edition" is totally different from the one that shows people getting plastic surgeries and often of them crying in pain. Here I'll just let their website do their introduction.

"In a race against time on a project that would ordinarily take months to achieve, a team of designers, hundred's of workmen and even the neighbors, have just seven days to completely renovate an entire house - every single room, plus the exterior and landscaping for a deserving family nominated by friends and family.

Along with Ty Pennington, the other members of the design team that work their creative magic on the homes are Constance Ramos, Preston Sharp, Michael Maloney, Paul Dimeo, Tracy Hutson, Eduardo Xol, Ed Sanders, Paige Hemmis, Tanya McQueen, and Daniel Kucan.

To get the job done, they're going to have to cooperate with each other — a hard thing to do when they don't always even like each other. Tensions flare as tastes are disputed and the deadline approaches…can they get the job done?"

They literally knocked down the whole house (Sorry that I can't find any pictures of them knocking the house) and then rebuild it in a totally cool and modern way in seven or six days. They then furnish the whole house with new furnitures, each person's room is decorated in the exact way that each person would like. Can you believe that?

But what I love about the show is the hope and love that is awe-inspiring. The families who are featured are usually those who are strucked by tragedies and illneses and they are unable to move on. Their house which is a mess and a pathetic state are a reflection of their personal lives. The design teams come in and give them a brand new house, hoping that the family will start again with a new house and move on.

The episode that stuck me the most is the one where a family of eight kids have just lost their parents. The design team build a house that was not only impressive but is a great hope to the eight kids, hoping that as the eight kids remember their parents, they also will continue to create happy memories in the future.

I also love that the show shows how much love and hope can be created when people come together. Other than the design team, contractors from all over the town also come to help to break the house and then rebuild it. Neighbours also come to support those who are working on the house and also to even donate money when there is not enough. When the family comes back and they sees the house, everybody will be crying along with them (especially Paul). What a great, entertaining and hope-inspiring show!

Design Team

Ty Pennington -Design team leader/carpenter

Paige Hemmis -Designer (Carpentry/Nuts & Bolts)

Paul DiMeo -Designer (Carpenter/Attitude)

Ed Sanders -Designer (Construction)

Eduardo Xol -Designer (Landscape)

Michael Moloney -Designer (Interiors/Glamour)

Preston Sharp -Designer (Exteriors/Big Ideas)

Tanya McQueen -Designer

Tracy Hutson -Designer (Shopping/Style)

John Littlefield -Designer (Handyman/Carpenter)

Credits to www.tv.com and http://abc.go.com/primetime/xtremehome/ for the pictures and information.

P.S: Any chance they will be popping by in Singapore?

self -contended

2007-04-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

Knowing My Limits

Sang by: Pong Nan
Written and Composed by: Pong Nan

I don't have an attractive face, I don't know how to shock the audiences.
I don't quite know how to use nice words to fool others.

I've always known that I don't have those qualities

To create a great atmosphere and to deceive listeners

But even the frog has a princess who accepts him.

I don't have a cute appearance, only have a pair of hands.

As I sing and play, even the plain become beautiful.

I don't have the great wish of becoming a superstar.

Even if I do become one, I think it'll be too forced.

I've never thought of trying to please everybody.

I only know to do my very best.

I don't like to use words of grief to garner words of sympathy,

I'll just focus on being a contented person.

I don't have a great eloquence, but there's no need to worry.

The ugly duckling and the swan, both can become great.

I'm not interested in putting on pretenses for anyone,

Putting up all these fancy things to get attention.

I've never thought of trying to please everybody,

I only know to do my very best.

I don't like to use words of grief to garner words of sympathy.

I've never given up my true identity.

Even if only one person truly listens to me,

I'm already fortunate to have his attention.

I know that there are things that I'll never do well enough.

I'll just focus on being a contented person.

I don't care about trying to please the world.

That's why i don't have to try so hard to cover up my imperfections.

I don't need protection and I don't need sympathy.

I've never been afraid of knowing the truth.

Even if the only one listening is this piano

It doesn't matter, because I'm truly happy.

I know that there is no way that I can become perfect.

I'll be satisfied with just being a simple person.

I can't force you to listen to me, or to give me your applause.

But at least, I can use my song to tell everyone what I think.

Credits to snookie_1 of AsianFanatics Forum for translating the Chinese lyrics into English

TIME

2007-03-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

time, has many things to be told
time, has many lessons to be learned
time, holds so much wisdom we have missed
time, tells many longings we have wished
time, measures what we can achieve
time, gives us futures to accomplish dreams
time, it passes quickly use it wisely
time, OH!! It's time for lunch

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took this poem from one of the most talented singer Hong Kong singer Khalil Fong's blog. given his humor and weird personality, i have a feeling that he composed the poem.

like Pong Nan, he writes most of his songs and probably for other artistes also. just can't enough of the talented HK singers! his songs are in Mandrian and are pretty good so if you want to listen to them, just let me know.

should check out his blog, it's pretty witty and funny.

http://hk.myblog.yahoo.com/soul-boy

hard fate

2007-03-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hard Fate

(starting next Tuesday 13 March Channel U 10 pm)

Cast:

Flora Chan

Damien Lau

Kevin Cheng

Niki Chow

Maggie Siu

Stephen Au

Hawick Lau

Lo Yuen Yan

Guest Stars:

Michael Tong

Michelle Yip

Sherming Yiu

Mark Kwok

Summary:The story of this series uses jade industry as its background so the theme of this story will use jade as its focus. The story will cross over the 20s, 40s from the last century and contemporary(ie, 2003) to bring out a story using different people from different time-period and of their complicate life stories. There is a mystical antique piece of jade called "Wo Hop Yee Sin" that will affect different characters in this series such as Flora chan, Damien Lau, Niki Chow, Kevin Cheng, Stephen Au, Maggie Siu, Michelle Yip, Mark Kwok and Michael Tong(Mark Kwok, Michael Tong and Michelle Yip are just guest-starring, and they'll enact their story in the 1920s).

If anyone wonders why this series theme is so similar to Maggie Cheung and Lawrence Ng's jade series, that's b/c this is the one, similar one that was featured in the promotional tv-presentation a while ago. Flora Chan plays a jewelry designer who will have a relationship with Kevin Cheng and Damien Lau. Producer Wong Sum Wai said she went to Myanmar to do researching for this series and called jewel dealers to sponsor b/c there are going to be a couple jewelry conventions and auctions later that need real jade stones. People could tell the stones are fake if they don't use real ones. So, they'll have body guards to guard them later. Niki Chow plays Damien Lau's daughter who will also have a relationship with Kevin Cheng. Maggie Siu plays a jewelry designer and an assistant to Damian Lau and liking Damian also

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I'm looking forward to this show! I saw the last 5 eps of this show last year and I was regretting why I couldn't have caught this show earlier. It is one of the better serials of TVB, considering the great acting and the amazing chemistry between Kevin and Niki.

The only drawback is the relationship between Flora and Damien. I think it is worse than the relationship between Zoe and Sam in Triumph In The Sky. I don't know what TVB is doing, keep on adding relationships that have huge generation gaps when they should realize that that is not their forte. Other than that, it is a great series to watch on the weekdays.

Credits to Asian Fanatics Forum and Gallery for the pictures and the information.

Faithful one

2007-02-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

Faithful One

Faithful One, so unchanging
Ageless One, You're my Rock of peace
Lord of all, I depend on You
I call out to You
Again and again
I call out to You
Again and again

You are my Rock in times of trouble
You life me up when I fall down
All through the storm
Your love is the harbour
My hope is in You alone

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This song is sure send by God to praise Him! Ever since I've started working, there were many times that I can see the things that God does for me! Everytime there is a problem, God will always appear in the nick of time. Like when I thought that I lost the title deeds *serious trouble* and I was getting despertate, it suddenly appeared in front of me! Or how my boss suddenly become nicer to me this week. Everytime I feel fustrated and want to walk out of that door and never come back again, He always make sure that something good will happen to me so that I will be happy again.

Yesterday's sermon and CG Bible Study was so apt in my working life. I have the motivational gift of service which means that it is very hard for me to say "no" to even people who I don't really like, which includes my boss. I now know that He has placed me in that company because they really do need my help, even though I can only help them with small things. Even though it may be very demanding and pressurizing at times, it feels better that I can help them with something and free them up to do something more important. And I know that whatever happens, I can always rely on God who will literally "(Come) To My Rescue".

In the coming week (and most likely the last week that I work there), I want to have a spirit of excellence. Making sure that I will do whatever that I has been assigned to do with my utmost best, and not slip-slop work. And always remembering to always bring the credit and praise back to God. I'm sure that as I serve, His Presence will be there and bless my work. :)

Also, I did something yesterday that I feel so much better. Although is akin to ending something, but it is an ending to my struggles and hurts which also make me feel that I have let go of a very big burden. Now I'm feeling light-hearted and ready for work!

"Surely goodness and loving

kindness will follow me all the days

of my life. And I will dwell in the

house of the LORD forever." [Psalms

23:6]

mp3 player

2007-02-04T14:08:00.000+08:00

After 5 months and 300 songs, Xiao Bei has finally ran out of space. *cries* But it is the perfect excuse to get a new 1GB or 2GB MP3 player! And since I've started working and is getting my pay very soon, I couldn't help searching for MP3 player on the net and found some pretty MP3 player!

Criteria for new MP3 player

must be at least 1GB or over
must be small and cool looking
less than $100

Creative Zen V 1 GB

Philips GoGear SA1335 1 GB

Archos Gmini XS100 4 GB

mobiBLU Cube 1 GB

Panasonic SV-MP010P 1GB

Cowon iAU DIO U2 1GB

This is my dream MP3 player!

pretty purple 2 GB

pretty pink 1 GB

*excited* I can't wait to get my pay and shop for my MP3 player! If anyone of you know any good lobang, please please let me know!

Footnote: Yahoo Shopping website for the pics of the other mp3 players!

let go

2007-02-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

I keep trying and trying and yet I

know that I will never ever fit in

with them.

It's time that I give up.

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I love Cantonese music. What are you going to do?

Trying to stop me from being different from you?

*looking forward to Wed -"Heroes" day*

PONG NAN banner

2007-01-28T15:34:00.000+08:00

This has totally made my day! Thanks to justtbecausee of Asianfanatics Forum for making this Pong Nan (yes, the guy that I was talking about a few posts ago). This will be in my signature on the same forum :)

As I was finding his pics online, I found out that he is ten years older than me! Blimey! That means he is going to be 29 this year. And I always thought that he was 23-25 years old.

Okay, that was a random post on a boring Sunday afternoon. I guess I must be learning random blogging from Beryl or Hannah...tsk tsk tsk mustn't mix around with them so much, if not I will be like them.

2007-01-28T02:59:00.000+08:00

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Derek: [to Meredith] Look I was married for 11 years. Addison is my family. That is 11 Thanksgiving’s, 11 birthdays, 11 Christmas’s, and in one day I am supposed to sign a piece of paper and end my family? A person doesn’t do that, not without a little hesitation. I’m entitled to a little uncertainty here. Just a moment to understand the magnitude of what it means to cut somebody out of my life. I am entitled to at least one moment of painful doubt and a little understanding from you would be nice.

Meredith: Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

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I think it's such a classic scene from the show Grey's Anatomy. Pretty romantic too.

P.S: Credits to http://www.imdb.com/ for the quote.

heroes

2007-01-26T13:06:00.000+08:00

5 more days to the first episode of Heroes on Star World !

Heroes is a serial saga about people all over the world discovering that they have superpowers and trying to deal with how this change affects their lives.

The relatable superheroes include Peter Petrelli, a 30-year-old male nurse who believes can fly, Diego Medina, a 28-year-old junkie who has the ability to paint images of the future when he is high, Niki Sanders, a 33-year-old Las Vegas showgirl who can do incredible things with mirrors, Hiro Makamura, a 24-year-old Japanese comic-book geek who literally makes time stand still, D.L. Hawkins, a 31-year-old inmate who can transport himself through walls, Matt Parkman, a beat cop who can hears other people's thoughts, and Claire Bennet, 17-year-old cheerleader who defies death at every turn.

Not only are they discovering what having superpowers means to them but also the larger picture of where their superpowers come from. Eventually their superpowers draw them together when they try to evade the series' antagonist who wants to harness their super-DNA for himself. Their ultimate destiny is nothing less than saving the world.

The series will star Greg Grunberg (Alias), Leonard Roberts (Buffy the Vampire Slayer), Milo Ventimiglia (Gilmore Girls), and Hayden Panettiere (Ally McBeal, Guiding Light). Tim Kring (Crossing Jordan, Chicago Hope) is the series' creator. The pilot is set to be directed by Dave Semel (American Dreams, Buffy, the Vampire Slayer, Beverly Hills, 90210). Heroes will be produced by NBC/Universal/Tailwind.

In the meanwhile, I shall entertain myself with Oprah Winfrey, Grey's Anatomy and E.R.

Footnote: Credit to athlon of Asianfanatics Forum for the pic and the information.

Saved by her hero, Jesus.

amazing grace

2007-01-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

Amazing Grace

Words by John Newton 1779

Amazing Grace!

How sweet the sound

That saved a wretch like me!

I once was lost, but now am found

Was blind, but now I see.

'Twas Grace that taught my heart to fear,

And Grace my fears relieved.

How precious did that Grace appear

The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils, and snares

I have already come.

Tis Grace hath brought me safe thus far

And Grace will lead me home
.

The Lord has promised good to me.

His Word my hope secures.

He will my shield and portion be

As long as life endures.

When we've been there ten thousand years

Bright shining as the sun,

We've no less days to sing God's praise

Than when we'd first begun.

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"Thank You Father for this grace that I know will substain me for tomorrow and will lead me home one day."

"My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness." [2 Cor 12: 9]

colours

2007-01-21T11:37:00.000+08:00

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Mom thinks wearing black is something of an artistic statement, but whispers that it also reveals a certain instability of character.

"I don't know, Mom," I answer, compelled to defend the colour black. "People like it because it's understated-"

"It's not understated; it's dramatic."

"-and sophisticated at the same time."

"Black's boring."

"How can black be boring and dramatic?"

"It's boring to look at, and dramatic because people who wears it want to appear like something they're not.'

"No."

Mom leans so far across the table, I think we're going to bump heads. "What child wears black?"

My mouth opens, closes. I'm genuinely stumped.

"My point," she concludes, straightening. "No child wears black. Children reach for color. Jamie would wear only yellow and royal blue T-shirts. His favourite sweatpants were St Patrick's Day green. Ashlee loved pink. Pink underwear, pink skirts, pink sweaters, pink hair barrettes, pink everything. And if pink wasn't an option, she'd grudgingly choose lavender."

"And me?"

Mom hesitates. Frowning, she shakes her head. "I forgot."

"You don't remember?"

"You liked all the colors of the rainbow."

"But I had to have a favourite."

Her frown deepens. She's thinking. Her shoulders finally lift, fall. "I don't think you had a favourite, or if you did, I don't recall."

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such an amusing conversation between a mother and daughter that I read in The Frog Prince by Jane Porter.

So what is your fave colour? Black or colours of the rainbow?

fairytales

2007-01-19T15:38:00.001+08:00

Fairytales always started with "Once upon a time," and they always ended with "happily ever after." And in between there's struggle and tragedy, love and loss, heartbreak and triumph. But in the end, love conquers all. In the end, everyone is happy.

They made us believe it's a man who will, and must, save us...that women need to be rescued, as if we were all helpless, fragile maidens locked in towers and dungeons or lying asleep, poisoned.

Rapunzel had to let down her ridiculously long hair so the prince could climb up it and free her.

Cinderella needed a fairy godmother and glass slippers for Prince Charming to save her from a life of misery.

Snow White needed not just one but a bunch of little men--seven, to be exact--to protect her until the prince could stumble through the woods and discover said maiden, unconscious and waiting for him. A gift offering on ice.

To get princes, Snow White and her sister Rose Red had to be so good. They had to make sure that there were always roses in vases on tables. The copper kettle had to shine. The floor had to be immaculate. And the girls had to be gentle, loving, obedient.

Obedient.

Those stories teach that love is reserved for those who sacrifice themselves, rather like the beautiful ballerina from "The Steadfast Tin Soldier," who burns up with her guy at the end, symbolizing true love. One shouldn't have to die--physically or psychologically--for love. Love should be about strength, not weakness. Empowerement, not dependence.

I wanted to be magical and special, strong, tender, invincible. I wanted to be like all the daring heroines in fairy tales. Not the ones who were waiting to be rescued, but the ones rescuing, the one saving. Not the sleeping princess needing to be awakened, but the warrior woman like Belle, who'd rescue her father from the monster's dungeon, a brave woman who'd fight a powerful curse.

That's the me who has always been here, but maybe she was buried so deep inside that no one-not even me- knew how real she was.

She is real. And she wants more.

So much more. She wants the big adventure she's never had; she wants the victories; she wants to be the confident, daring hero, not the damsel in distress.

No more waiting like Rapunzel locked up in the ivory tower. No more Sleeping Beauty dozing in a high palace chamber. No more Snow White laid out on ice beneath glass.

All the magic, happy endings and good things can't just be at Disneyland.

why u should never believe in fairytales

2007-01-08T14:58:00.001+08:00

Lies that fairytales make you believe

1. That girls should always wait for guys to come and save them, when they have the ability to save themselves (refer to Bluebeard)

2. That love is worthy enough for you to sacrifice your uniqueness and even your life. (refer to The Little Mermaid. No, not the Disney one where they lived happily ever after. The original one where she died in the end.)

3. That there is always a Fairy God Mother to help you solve your every problem and grant you your heart's desire. (refer to Cinderella)

4. That you can be resurrected by a kiss even after you are dead. (refer to Snow White)

5. That you can still look pretty and cause guys to fall for you even when you are sleeping. (refer to Sleeping Beauty)

6. That you have an unique shoe size that your shoes can only fit you and you only. (refer to Cinderella)

7. That you can rub any ancient oil lamp and a genie will come out of it before fulfilling your three wishes (refer to Aladdin)

actually, fairytales are created so that you little boys and girls will believe its evil lies and believe it as the reality.

THEREFORE, YOU SHOULD NEVER BELIEVE IN FAIRYTALES!

How to recognize a fairytale - It begins with a "Once upon a time..." and ends with a "...and they lived happily ever."

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

sin mong

2007-01-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

"Easy To Forget" by Pong Nan Lam Yi Bong

Disclaimer's Note: This song is actually in Cantonese. I merely translated the lyrics into English with the help of babelfish.altavista.com although I wouldn't recommend it.

I mistook Horse Leo as Mickey.
I have lost almost twenty handphones.
My memory loss
Is so serious that I forgot about it.
Dropped a memo,
Cannot recall it as usual.
Tomorrow supposed to deliver letter.
Tomorrow then discovered,
Today's movie ticket.

Who was once in my room
Enjoying those happy times?
I only see
The empty double bed.
Other people and matters have all been forgotten.
Those who have store everything in their memory,
May have many disappointments.
Maybe heaven is kind to them,
Letting them forget

The car I parked somewhere,
Ask me ten seconds later, I no londer remember.
Also many times,
Left my keys in my house.
Facing you with words to say,
The moment I want to start,
I realised that I have forgotten the intention.
Silence is more beautiful.
Not opening mouth does not mean losing.

Who was once in my room
Enjoying those happy times?
I only see
The empty double bed.
Other people and matters have all been forgotten.
Those who have store everything in their memory,
May only look back sometimes.
Maybe heaven is kind to them,
Letting those feelings and memories be forgotten.

Never mind,
Those memories remembered or forgotten,
No one look backs at them anymore.
Not scared of forgetting those past events,
Continue to make friends with people.

Who was once in my room
Enjoying those happy times?
I only see
The empty double bed.
No need to discuss the coming years.
That night, that manner is unforgettable,
Do not treat it as a haven.
Clinging on to yesterday will never bring peace.
Maybe heaven is kind to them,
Letting them forget.

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This is one of my favourite song from my hubby (haha, yah right Clesias! *rolls eyes*). Please do not mind the funny translation, I have already tried my very best to make it sound as arty farty as the song really sounds.

Those parts that are in yellow means something to me because I feel the same way as the persona in the song. The happy times always pass in a rush and it always seem that nothing have changed and "I only see/ the empty double bed." at the end of the day.

Sometimes, those who remembers everything will eventually be the one who is the most disappointed because they see people forgetting the promises made, all the good memories that were created or even the fact that they were friends before. "Maybe the heaven is kind to them,/ letting them forget."

I feel that way now and I really wish that I could forget all the disappointments caused by those memories that I have.

But at the end I learnt that I should not "cling to yesterday" because it would "never bring peace" and that I should not be hindered by all those disappointments and "continue to make friends with people". Joy reminded me last night that I have many other friends who appreciate and care for me even if I feel that some do not.

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past." (Isaiah 43: 18)

tv shows

2007-01-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

I remember when I was young, my family used to enjoy watching the show "ER" (even though it was way past our bedtime, it was either shown at 10 p.m or 11 p.m. Thought me and my brothers couldn't understand all the medical terms and the sarcastic undertones, we still see it week after week because it was exciting to see how the doctors cope with overwhelming accidents and dealing with difficult people at the same time. It was also heart-warming to see the doctors putting their best efforts to treat each and every patient and the relationships and bonds that were created in that operation theatre.

Thus, it was a pleasure to see the reruns of that show in Hallmarks Channel after it has stopped broadcasting on Channel 5. This time, I was able to understand the dialogue a bit more (I still can't understand the medical terms and they still spoke too fast for me) but the effect of the show on me has never changed. Now I'm trying to find shows that are similar to "ER" and I am delighted to see that Star World have the shows "Third Watch" and "Heros" coming up!

Still, none of today's show will ever fully take over the place that shows like "ER", "Seventh Heaven", "Touched By An Angel", "Gilmore Girls" or even "Ally Mcbeal" and "Friends" have in my heart. (crossing my fingers for more re-runs of them on TV)

P.S: Star World is showing Season 1 of "Friends" FYI.

friendship?

2007-01-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

As you grow one year older, you become more cynical about the friendships that you have. You begin to suspect the motives and the agenda of every little actions done by even your closest friends. I really long to go back to the days when I was naive and believed that everybody was genuinely nice to me.

People are never what they appeared to be. I've always thought that I was very close friends with this group of friends and that they were my only friends in that place. But I'm beginning to feel that they have never treated me as a friend. Still I've always strive to be friendly to them, joking and doing things together, but it has been taking a toll on me these days.

I'm not sad or anything but I'm just tired and have reached the level called "heck care". If this friendships are really what I think it is, then I think it's better to leave them alone.

new year's eve

2007-01-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

First day of the year! slept over at Eliza's house last night and then slept the whole afternoon away on the first day of the year. as in literally slept in Eliza's house because i was the first one to sleep there and one of the last ones to wake up (Sarah Mok was the last one to wake up, as expected). peopele who were there are the little girls (Isabelle, Valery, Andrea, Sarah Mok, Eliza) and the not so little girls (me, Vera, Pris and Adeline), including some boys (Renfred and Eujin)

one unexpected thing that happened was that we could play rounds after rounds of Boggle, it was so addictive! no wonder, people who were at Telunas were playing so many rounds of it! im really amazed at the vocab that the little girls have despite their age, they taught me one or two words. goes to show that we cant judge people by their age. haha it was a really refreshing time as i have never stayed over with so many little girls before and i was the oldest there, if Adeline didn't come! but then, i have already gotten used to being one of the oldest in a group, guess im on my way to becoming a Young Adult Ministry-er.

as all of them complained about starting school and doing their holiday homework, im really thankful for my in-holiday status. but im still missing school and doing homework...haha indeed, im very surprised at myself also! i might go back to PJC to watch people being tortured during orientation and also passing the card to Andy...haha

hey girls, thanks for the fun-filled night (even though i slept at 2 am) playing Boggle and sparklers! im really glad that i've gotten the chance to enjoy the first wee hours of the year with you all, esp Vera because this is the first time that i have slept over with you! i pray that all of us will become closer friends this year!

kun quan and raymond

2006-12-31T04:54:00.000+08:00

don't they look alike?!

haha, but then the guy in the second pic look much better than the guy in the first one. i'm sure all of you all know who the guy in the first pic is -Kun Quan but i dun think most of you will know the guy in the second pic...he is Raymond Lam (another guy that i wouldn't mind marrying and have kids with and one of my fave HK actor) actually, most of my cg have spotted the similarity ever since the show "Survivor's Law" was shown here and i remember it was when we went to Kun Quan's house.

hey Kun Quan, you should be honoured that i'm saying that you look like one of the hottest guy in Hong Kong! maybe you will look more like him as you grow old, but i doubt you will ever match his charisma and coolness...haha

christmas photos

2006-12-30T17:39:00.000+08:00

photos of Christmas! but i do need more because i recall that there are more photos with my face! so those who have my photos, please send it to me, thanks!

notice the 'extra' behind? really don't like it when guys do all these, so childish

PONG NAN

2006-12-30T14:52:00.000+08:00

haha, he is my latest obessions! actually, i have like him for quite sometime already, but his latest album is something that i cant get over! actually, he is not that handsome (here is his pic) but he looks sincere and nice, i wouldn't mind marrying him and having his kids! (well, if he can cook)

i think what makes me like him is his songs. yup, you guess it, he is a singer. not a very good looking one but he makes up for it for his talent. the last time that i've checked, he is a composer, lyricst, a vocalist AND a singer under Sony. and he plays the piano very well too. hard not to fall for a guy that is so talented! and he writes meaningful songs and lyrics for many artistes such as Jacky Cheung, Joey Yung, Wilfred Lau and even once produced Andy Lau's album and also for himself. his songs are not the typical lovey-dovery ballads that you hear all over radio, but they are songs that cause me to ponder and think about. its kinda like Boey Kim Cheng's poems (no pls dont shiver, class of 05A01!) but its more intimate and less harsh and it is something that i can understand. like a cross of BKC and Corrine May.

as i've said, his latest album is great! and he is a great singer, with a deep and rich voice...but his speaking voice is even more sexy...haha. i really hope that he will continue to produce better albums in the future and nice songs! and i will dream of having your kids!

oh yah, his name is Pong Nan Lam Yi Bong. i wonder how my name will sound with his surname. Clesias Lam...lol

a happy witch

2006-11-25T04:35:00.000+08:00

its 4.30 am and im still not asleep. i guess im too happy that 'A' levels are finally over. i know longer have to care what are Boey's concern and how does Churchill raises questions in her play. No more trying to spell 'Unheimlich' and memorising who wrote The Strange Case Of Dr Jekyll And Mr Hyde. i dun have to bother what is the difference between a soliloquy and a aside. why do i have to care what is the multiplier and the regressive tax struture. nor do i have to calculate the probability of getting a rotten apple out of 500000 apples. YES, IT IS FINALLY OVER.

what im trying to do now is memorise the lyrics of the theme song of Triumph In The Skies and other nice songs. and probably get a job. *shrugs*

i dun get it why Zoe and Sam end up together in the end! yes, i want Zoe to be happy but Issac is more suitable for her! What is the producers thinking?! and why does so many people like Zita?! i'm so disappointed with TVB once again, they should really go and check their brains. this almost beat the crappy ending of DIFIV to be one of the worst ending what with Vincent dying and Belle being all alone, Zita doesn't choose anybody and Paul/Ruby does not have an ending. but other than that, i still love this show.

no more tears

2006-11-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

may i ask why the blogger homepage is in chinese?! there is something seriously wrong with the second computer. the page just keeps flicking...

i've been thinking about this year. it seems that i've undergone a change in myself due to reasons not known to me (will the page just stop flicking now?!) i no longer cries at silly little things. songs that will have me start bawling in the past are just nothing but a bunch of lyrics forced together with musical notes to my ears. at best, i've matured and become less emotional. at worst (which is often the case), i've become more cynical and indifferent. mr sas would love to call me a desensitized existence.

one reporter once wrote this in her coloum in the Straits Times: very little bothers me anymore and that is my fear. i think that is very true in my life

6 MORE DAYS AND 2 MORE PAPERS = 4 episodes of Triumph In The Skies, 1 weekend edition of Wan Quan Yu Le and 2 episodes of Tian Wai Fei Xian

a forgotten existence

2006-11-12T14:54:00.000+08:00

during the week, my friend msged me this "hey just want to let you know that as you're sloging (spell wrongly, should be 'slogging') for your papaers, you're not definitely not forgotten alright?". wat a joke. if he didn't msg me this, i wouldn't have been reminded of my loneliness. it definitely seems as if the world has moved on and forgotten about me. its not a pretty feeling, im telling you.

XB just let me listen to one nice song. its the theme song for the Channel U 10 pm show "Triumph In The Skies" by Eason Chan. nice song and show

12 more papers and 6 more papers

P.S: who is partner? are you taking the 'A' s too? and Alison, you can name them if you want to, i mean its ur hamsters. lol

my best companion

2006-11-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

in the midst of studying and eating notes mentally, one companion has proven true and loyal to me.........which is my MP3 player! lol...her name is call Xiao Bei (influence of Love Magician). XB is very nice to me, encouraging me to continue studying because i just can't bear to be apart from her even sleeping is a dread to me! her encouragement comes in the form of my favourite songs.

from the sweet, happy sounds of "Hu Si Luan Xiang" (by K One and Ivy), "Zhi Dui Ni You Gan Jue" (by Hebe and Fei Lun Hai), "24" (by Janice and Charles Ying) and "Sweet Date" (by 183 club) to the deep and meaningful sounds of "The World Is So Big", "Man Nieen", "Feng Loi" (all by Pong Nan), "Infactuation" (by Denise Ho) and to the beautiful lyrics of "Mignight Knocking Door" (by Denise Ho) and "Protect" (by Ivana Wong and Hins Cheung), all this are XB's encouragement and my main motivation. there are many nice songs in XB that i have no time to mention but they all mean something to me.

final shoutout: XB, I LOVE YOU!

P.S: if you have no idea what all this means, this is because you are not me :)

19 MORE DAYS AND 8 MORE PAPERS

living a life of listlessness

2006-10-28T13:05:00.000+08:00

gosh, is that counted as alliteration? must be studying Literature too much these days

really restless and listless. i literally have to force myself to sit down and mug. i think it will be easier to eat my notes than to eat them mentally. looking forward to that day when Lit paper 5 will be over: 24 Nov

things that i promise my friends when that day comes
1. go Malaysia to eat Secret Recipe with Andrew
2. movie/series maranthon with Beryl at her house
3. HK movie/serial maranthon with Samy
4. prom shopping with Pris and Leah

THAT DAY IS COMING SOON

a passerby: opps, sorry. my bad. thanks for your encouragement!
anonymous: i dun know who you are, but you dun really know the friends that I'm talking about, do you? thanks anyway for your affirmation!

THAT DAY IS COMING SOON

websites down

2006-10-22T17:29:00.000+08:00

great...winglin is down AGAIN. arrggg....my all time favourite internet past time is totally screwed because the website is down again! why can't they just get a stable server like AF?! i bet many winglin fans are complaining about the same thing.

even blogspot.com is down too. they changed it to blogger.com which i dun see the whole point of changing the link.

i have finished posting in AF and i can't think of any more songs that i want to download. i guess its time for me to study now.

winglin, please be okay tomorrow~

zil social life

2006-10-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

this 'A' level is really a killer. not only does it deplete my brain juices, its also a social life killer. guess what? i'm not able to go out with my friends because "I've got to study". most probably, they are saying that as an excuse because they wouldn't want me there. as a result, i feel so distanced from them. if this goes on, i might not be able to keep my friends even after 'A' levels.

one good thing about studying: keeps my mind off things and doesn't remind and taunt me about my loneliness

OT: i didn't even know that people are still reading my blog. i've always secretly updated my blog so that nobody except me will know how i feel. but now i guess i have to keep certain things unwritten here...

gosh, i really need to get rid of this cheerful blogskin~